Quitting on a very low note: I hacked Yes, I really mean it. This is the story: Note: I do write this asking anybody to feel sorry for me or to avoid getting banned. In no way does this greatly affect me emotionally. The decision to post this was made after reviewing the facts logically in my head and deciding this was the best thing to do. So today.... After great thought, I decided to roll my grief in a Zerker axe. It came out as a 30/35x. At that moment, I was quite angry at my luck. So, I gave in to temptation, and I rerolled it. It came out as a 40/384 Grief. At this point, I was happy and thought "oh well, no one's the worse for it". After I while though, the guilt rose and I didn't really feel comfortable with it. Of course, the easy thing to do, would be to reroll it until it got the original stats and then just leave it at that and not do something like that again. However, it was more complicated than that. After a little reflection, I realized that it was rather a problem that I felt the need to cheat at Diablo and began to think that I should probably quit. However, the pull of Diablo is strong; I could not bring myself to delete all my stashes/characters I had spent so long on, so, on an impulse, when I was about to load a mule to trade with someone, instead on putting in my pgems, I duped a whole bunch of classic pgems (I have a few left over from my experimentations with previous patches) and put them in instead. It was irrational, but I thought that if I get caught, well I'm banned so I'll quit, and if I'm not, well then I'll just keep on playing. A sort of, if you will, coin flip. I guess that I knew subconciously that being banned would be the only way I quit: I would come crawling back after a few weeks otherwise. About five minutes after sending the email however, I regretted the decision. It would suck to be banned, and I thought up a horde of excuses for why I might have 50 or so classic pgems/hoped that the person would not notice and the next couple trades I made were made with my real pgems. After a little more thinking, I realized that a game making me behave like this really was a kinda serious problem and that even if I didn't get caught, I'd own up and get banned as I was obviously semi or completely addicted. While I could deal with that when it was summer vacation, with school starting, it could turn out to be disasterous. With that I decided to go to sleep. While brushing my teeth, it occured to me, the effect that my banning would have. I have traded with as many, if not more people than CoS. If the person I sent the Classic Gems too realized what he recieved and he alerted mods (which was likely, seeing that I knew that he had recieved the gems, but had not replied), I would have a very hard time convincing them that this was my first time hacking, and many people would feel obliged to therefore delete hundreds of items. Therefore, I wrote this thread. Hopefully, this will convince people that the items I have traded in the past are legitimate. I was not thinking of the impact it might have on the community, when I first sent out the "duped pgem" mule. Obviously I should have just been able to quit without help. I understand that people will be cynical of what I say, for this is a weird story, and for their sake, and mine, I ask that the mods ban me no matter what. After all, I did hack and I might not even be telling the truth now in this post. Obviously, the actual thought processes were no where as simple as what I wrote, but that would be a fairly accurate summary of the thought processes. In retrospect, eveb I'm not 100% sure what I was thinking when I duped those gems, and although I did my best to try and explain why I did such a thing, it does sound very ubelievable, even as I am rereading this post. I did not really feel like talking about something like this, to, pardon me, a group of strangers, but I did it because I truly appreciated the fun times I had with this forum and hope that through this post, I will limit the damage that my stupidity may cause. I don't know how much help this will be, as other members, when they were banned, probably said it was their first time as well, but the items they traded in the past were considered illicit. It is more of a selfish gesture than anything else, as this post will somewhat lessen the guilt I feel. This will be the last time I post on these forums, and hopefully the last time I visit. I'm sorry that it is one that will bring more trouble to the SPF. Please don't repeatedly fill this thread with OMG HE SUXXX. If you must, limit it to this thread. Yes I know that I was stupid and selfish. Venting is something most people want to do. Posting more than once about it just doens't help matters though. Save it for the monsters.