I miss having someone to share my life with The proverbial "You only really know what you have until you lose it" is perhaps the greatest of all the realizations I've had since my wife and I separated seven months ago. The millions of "ifs" and "should haves" are nothing more than painful reminders of how my marriage could have blossomed into a beautiful relationship my wife and I could be sharing by now. I am all alone now. After 12 years of knowing each other, of being with someone, now just suddenly alone. I pray that those in the forums who have a special other and is on the same path I was on realize soon enough that love has a price and no matter what others say it is not free. Take full ownership of your relationship and do not let a day go by without wondering how you can make things better. In the end nothing else in this world is more important than that person you have dedicated your life too. I have realized this too late. Although I am happy that I still came to this understanding. Perhaps in due time when I am ready to love again, whether it is still my wife Cindy or someone else, the hurtful path I took that almost destroyed my partner in life is a path I will avoid even if it should cost my very life itself. Another night I retire with no one beside me...another day I come home with no one to share my day with...I can but only remember the times I was not alone and hope that someday I will be with someone once again.