Huh. How 'bout That? My dad's mother just passed away tonight. I'm sad for my dad, but strangely I'm not at all upset personally. My grandmother was always distant for me; my dad's side of the family has always been a bit dysfunctional, and my mom and myself and my brother were never 'Chinese enough' for her. I feel a little bit guilty, that I should be feeling more. But she and I were never close. I saw her maybe twice or three times a year, if that. And she was quite old, and this was expected. I'm just sad for my father. Maybe I'm just looking for someone to tell me that it's okay for me to feel this way. Maybe I need someone to tell me that I'm not some sort of horrible monster for not being broken up that my grandmother just passed away.